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Thursday, August 11, 2011

Flexing the willpower muscle - am I being too hard on myself?


I suppose I should put a disclaimer on what I’m about to write.  I really do consider that I have a pretty strong willpower muscle, developed since April, and I’m really proud of how strong it is. 
I organised a Christmas in July morning tea at work that was held a couple of weeks ago.  Everyone brought in this delicious looking and incredibly sugar loaden food but despite this, during the morning tea, I didn’t touch a single thing.  Even when I had to cut some doughnuts and cake and I got some cinnamon sugar and icing on my fingers, I didn’t even lick my fingers when I was done.  I just went straight to the sink and washed my hands.  The food sat in the kitchen throughout the day and I didn’t touch a single thing, although was tempted on the couple of times I went to make a cup of tea or fill up my water bottle.
I posted a while ago about how I was given a chocolate cupcake from one of the cupcake shops and I gave it away to a work colleague (although I entertained the thought of how nice it would taste before I did!).
I get that my willpower muscle is strong based on those events, but that doesn’t mean that it was easy.  Each and every situation I have come across where I’ve flexed that willpower muscle, has meant I’ve had to make the conscious choice not to eat that food.  It often involved some serious deliberation in my head, weighing up the options (is it really worth it? will I think it’s worth it if I weigh myself on Wednesday and I haven’t lost as much as I wanted? how will I feel if I don’t eat it and get a great result on Wed vs how will eating the food make me feel? Will I look back at this moment in time in 6 months and think, gee I wish I had that chocolate slice etc? is this honouring the commitment I made to myself, and to Michelle?).
One of my biggest goals right now is to get to a headspace where the choice becomes subconscious and not a conscious one.  I want to be one of those people who really can take it or leave it, without having to deliberate in their head about it before making the choice.
I was discussing this with a friend on the weekend and he thinks I’m being too hard on myself.  He thinks I should just be happy with the fact I have such a strong willpower and can make the conscious decision and stick with it.
Am I being too hard on myself, or am I setting myself a realistic goal?

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